Denilson has talked about his hard time during his Arsenal spell.
in 2006 but he didn’t show the expected quality and now he has revealed that he was experiencing bad days and that he felt loneliness during his time in London.
“Going home after training was fine, but after a game, I’d just played in front of 60,000 fans cheering for me,”
. “I’d have a shower at the stadium and go home, but once I got there I found myself alone.
“I’d log on to MSN Messenger hoping to speak to someone, to see if anyone had watched my game, but there was no one online.
“That sort of thing started to affect me, as you think to yourself, ‘The match is over, I want to talk to someone, but there’s no one around’. People only see us as professionals, but they forget we’re also human beings.
“Some days, I was feeling all right and wanted to go for a walk in the afternoon, But then you see the weather – it was depressing and you give up. I thought, ‘Dear God, is this my life?’ You don’t have anyone to talk to, no one online to chat to and discuss stuff other than football.
“I struggled a lot with that but didn’t mention it to anyone. I kept it all to myself. I never told Gilberto Silva, for example. He often invited me to his house, but I never felt comfortable. I thought, ‘He has his own life, his wife and his kids. I don’t want to keep bothering him’.
“One Christmas, he invited me and I didn’t go. I stayed locked up at home, alone, as I didn’t want to inconvenience him.”