Anton Ferdinand opened up about the episode during a Premier League game between Queens Park Rangers and Chelsea after a long quietness
Former defender says after spoken up in the racism case against
, he dreaded the potential responses and reactions.
At that point,Chelsea
skipper Terry was blamed for racism toward Ferdinand during aPremier League
fixture against QPR in October 2011.
Terry denied the allegations and was cleared in the subsequent criminal legal dispute, however, an ensuing examination by the Football Association made a decision about the previous England star to be liable, suspended him for four games, and charged him £200,000.
Ferdinand has disclosed why he wouldn't remark on the circumstance freely while the legal dispute was going on, however laments surrendering it all to others to choose.
"I didn't feel like I was the right representation of our community in terms in speaking out and I don't think that I could have at the time anyway," he said in an interview with Sky Sports. "I was scared to speak out and I see that now. I was scared of the whirlwind of what happened, the abuse on social media, I couldn't get away from it, it was always there.
"I felt like I just couldn't speak, not just because it would harm the court case, which was being drummed into me a lot at the time. I did something that I wish I hadn't done, which was I left it in the hands of the authorities and they failed me."
The previous QPR and West Ham full-back first talked about the occurrence openly in an ongoing BBC narrative,
Anton Ferdinand: Football, Racism and Me
The 35-year-old brother of Rio Ferdinand, who hanged up his boots in July 2019, presently wants to utilize his experience to help other people.
"I feel like I needed to understand my journey and how I felt so I could mentor others," he said. "Because you mentor from experience, that's the best way to do it.
"So I needed to understand how it had made me feel and how I dealt with it. I never thought it was going to be therapeutic but it ended up being one, it brought up a lot of emotions and things that hurt me."